Dear pillow
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“I’m very sorry to inform you that probably next week I will not sleep on you, due to school. Don’t worry, nothing is wrong with you, you still smell and feel great. It’s just that this semester I have to be very hard working, I have to get high grades. Hmmm It’s funny how you’ve so good to me, and you’re the only person -or thing- that has always been there for me. Even if I cheat on you with my computer, T.V, or homework late at night, you still welcome me. You still put up with my tears on you every night. Is it weird that my best friend is a pillow?”
So after my letter to my pillow, you probably think I’m crazy, depressed, and I love sleeping. Not going to deny it. It’s funny how you have many friends, but you still feel lonely. Ah Whateverrrrrrr, you probably think I’m insane now, but that’s true so no worries haha.
Today, I told my brother about his wife, and how how much of a hypocrite she is. She’s treated m badly since I was 9 or 10 years old. She called me the N word. She laughs about me behind my back with my two faced sister., and a loooooot of other things. It’s not enough that i had hard time about my color in school, but I had to hear it from sister in law. I know it sounds silly, but she did a lot of other things as well. Believe me please, I don’t think my brother did. For eight years I kept my mouth shut until today. He probably thinks I just want to destroy his marriage 
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It’s not just her, even my own sister from my own blood. How can she be so evil?! Spreading those rumors aboutme just when I was 10 or so. My own family, my cousins hate me. How could she do that? Why do I feel like a complete stranger in own family?
Grrr don’t want to talk about, not anymore.
So currently I’m listening to Caitlin Crosby – Flawz, I luv her. The lyrics are just amazing.
Here I am, here I stand, I took a picture of my hand
Bet you can tell its not manicured
Here I am, half a man, I’m not a doctor, I’m not tan
And I never helped the score
I drive too fast
The team picked me last
I break the rules and like it
My body curves
I forget the words
I missed the serve and lost it
All my flawz to see.
But you still love,
Love me.
BTW, I opened the reviews section again :).
Haha, my best friend might also be my pillow. But not any certain pillow because my mom keeps on changing them. XD I guess I’m insane as well. LOL.
Ughh, I would hate to have a sister and sister-in-law as well. It’s a good thing you told your brother about it. I think he should have believed you, because you are his sister after all.
Sometimes I feel like a stranger in my own family as well. No one spreads bad rumours about me, but everyone makes fun of me a lot. :( At least we have our friends.
I’ve never heard that song. The lyrics seem quite great.
I’m listening this song!
I think i love it :X
My only brother is 12. He’s so annoying…
Especially when I’m very happy ori very sad 
I have super online friends and that makes me feel better 
My real “friends” don’t deserve 
It’s a good think you told your broather about his wife!
I’ insane too
Even my real friends have two faces I’m trying to be happy
Take care!
Ps: Tnx for accepting me! I think we’ll be greal frieds even my english is horrible
I love the letter to your pillow! It’s awesome and I pretty much do the same things to my pillow! My pillow may be my best friend too?? XD
I think it’s great how you told your brother about how you feel towards his wife. It’s good how you got it all out after such a long time. But I can’t believe your sister in blood would do such a thing to you. If my sister did that to me, I would probably either really dislike her, or maybe even loathe her.
I just hope your doing okay with all of that going on around you. Keep your head up high and just forget about what people say or think about you. After all, all the matters is what you think of yourself (I know, that’s very corny and repetitive, but it’s really true
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LOL. I feel the same about my pillow right now. I want sleep so badly, but I have an english project to work on.
Your brother deserves to know about how you feel about his wife. You have no choice but to have to put up with her, and it’s not fair to you that she’s rude to you. And your sister too.. that’s just horrible.
I know how you feel though. My family just always seems to leave me out of things. All my cousins and both my sisters are all close, and all get along well, but it seems that no one is ever like that with me, except for the times that I’m the only one there. It sucks, but I guess you just gotta stick it out until you’re at a place in your life where you don’t have to deal with your family as much.
LOL. My sister did that as well. She also wanted to study architecture like me, but then ended up studying business. I hope I don’t do that as well. I’m not interested in business-y stuff at all.
Hehe, sometimes I do think my father is really a genius. He’s pretty talented and I love the way he handles things, except when he gets mad at my mom. :|
Thanks.*hugs*
I hate crowds as well. I like being surrounded by people I’m close to as long as there isn’t TOO many people. XD
I wish my computer was in my room so I could work at night. But then my mom would see me using the computer at night and she would seriously break the monitor and CPU as she always threatens to do. XD
LOL, thanks :D
I can’t believe how your sister-in-law is treating you. I mean, she’s pretty much part of the family now, so I think she should be treating you like family as well. As for your sister, (I think she’s older than you, right?) I think she should be respecting you. If she treats you badly, I think when you get older, you guys won’t have a good relationship because of past experiences.
I also think your brother should believe you, because who would lie about something like that?
D: I hope you’re alright. *hugs*